dear my blog…. you re my only place to confess my all of my inner mind. and now I want to tell every feeling to my dearest person, Nadya. A person who ever come to my life for a while, but it just one hand clapping love i know, she has another world what can make her happy, now my poor phone text is just breezes away like a leaves in autumn morn. I thinking of her every night , even every second.
I can never read her mind, i dont know what she thinking about. why this should have a start if this is just have a bad ending just like this? i fell too deep inside of her love but i know she never really loving me. Today i decided to make an end for these complicated things. suddenly i remember to the lyric of a song ” when you love someone you gotta learn to let them go” http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kgLWhmOjtDM . that song has represented eveything in my mind.
Aku udah bilang berkali – kali aku gak bakalan tau kalo dia gak ngomong, tapi kayaknya dia gak pernah ngomongin ke aku apa yang dia pikirkan. gak tau kenapa dia udah gak peduli lagi sama aku. Aku udah janji mau ngajak jalan-jalan dia desember nanti, biar waktu yang menjawabla, tapih, tapi janji harus saya tepati. aku sayang banget sama kamu dek…. sayaaaang banget. semoga suatu saat dia sadar kalo “no one need you more than i need you”. aku pengen keadaan seperti dulu lagi. tapi yaudahlah keadaan sekarang sudah sangat kacau. tapi apapun yang terjadi aku bakal tetep sayang sampai kapanpun, 🙂 . aku masih inget banget pas dia sms bilang kalo dia sayang sama aku dan udah nyaman. tapi sekarang kenapa berubah drastis?
sehabis sholat entah kenapa aku gak pernah lupa buat ngucapin doa ini ” ya Allah jika Nadya jodohku dekatkanlah dia, jika bukan maka berikan dia orang yang tepat” . mungkin doa ku sudah didengar-Nya. : )
cukuplah tulisanku kali ini. tapi aku bakal selalu nunggu kamu ngubungin aku lagi dan kita jalani hari hari seperti dulu. SEMOGA.
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